Posted by Lissa on May 13, 2010
No, I don’t mean a guilty conscience, or white guilt. I mean fiscal guilt.
I have a lovely white raincoat that I bought recently and wore to a college graduation. I received many compliments on it. My standard response? “Thanks! It was on sale!” Or “Thanks! It was only $___!”
I’ve bought some new shoes recently; both on the Kitty Den budget (my other black heels wore out) and on my allowance funds (didn’t need them, just WANTED them, and they were WICKED on sale). I’ve received compliments on them. My standard response? “Thanks! They were wicked cheap at Macy’s!”
Why can’t I calmly accept compliments on my apparel or belongings? Why do I feel the need to reflexively defend myself against a nonexistent charge that I spent too much money?
Mike and I are pretty lucky right now; we both have good jobs, and we don’t yet have kids. (Except Rajah, and while he’s a little piggy we regulate his diet pretty well so he doesn’t eat us out of house and home. Also, he’s healthy, so we don’t have ridiculous vet bills with which to contend.) Still, we eat dinner at home at least five days a week, usually more. I shop and cook every week according to what’s on sale at the grocery store. We both make lunches to bring to work. We have designated allowance funds that let us indulge our whims to a certain extent, and no more.
We’re fiscally prudent because it’s silly not to be.
Why, then, do I feel guilty?
Why do I reflexively feel the need to defend myself about new purchases?
P.S. Turns out I”m very used to 3.5″ heels. 4″ takes a bit of getting used to.